We all have wounds and pains from our past experiences. Are you living your present day life with a “Hole” heart or with a “Whole” heart. Ask yourself this question today.
I recently asked myself this question when I was feeling awful. Emotionally and physically. The ickiness I was feeling on this one day in particular was in fact, an opportunity for me to shift and heal more. It was a blessing.
Since I had my emotional breakdown in 2011, I have been determined to feel whole again. I am on this journey to heal my mind, my body and my spirit and live my life full of abundance, joy, love and peace! I have been showing up and I will continue to show up to do this work! I chose to show up on this blessed day of ickiness to work on more healing too.
Before I share my personal story from this day and share the tools I used for my shifting and healing, I would like to share something that I discovered about me 2 years ago. (I am such a sharer, aren’t I? I used the word share 3 times in one sentence! HA)
As I began to unravel parts of my pains to heal the root wounds in me, I started reuniting with my heart and my soul. Doors began to open in the “unseen world” and I was connecting to my higher self, other spirits, angels and light beings, and guides. It was not an instant thing. It was a gradual process and I did seek out a mentor. But I want to disclose (share :)) this background about me because in my posts, I share 🙂 messages from spirit and the divine. I wasn’t born open like this. (well, actually, we are probably born with this connection but we shut it off for many reasons) My healing journey opened this gift up again for me. And if you wish, this door can be open again for you too.
Ok, now back to this blessed icky day where I shifted 🙂
There are so many ways to heal. For me, I find that writing and drawing are my go-to tools to shift. For healing purposes, I wrote this poem and drew this picture when emotions and triggers were happening.
I also want to point out that my physical body is a great gage for when emotional healing is needed. The day before my emotional triggers, I had physical symptoms of pains in my back and shortness of breath. I said to myself, “Oh crap! Was this COVID?” Luckily it was not. After connecting to my spirit, I soon realized that it was my unaddressed pain pertaining to my mom.
I journaled. I received a message from my mom. I received a poetic message from my spirit. I drew it. I created the shift. Here it is!
The Messages – The Shift
While I have been processing the grief of losing my mom and healing old wounds, I was shown that I had a hole in my heart. My mom, while living, would always fill me up with her love and make me feel better. She is no longer here. I was feeling the void. A hole. I was feeling empty on this day. I needed my mom. Then I heard this….
It is my responsibility in this life as Tara to heal the trauma and pain. And fill myself with my own love and light.
And so I did.
The Hole & "The Whole Goal There was no more denying I had a hole in my heart. It was my unhealed wounds And childhood was the start. While I have worked on myself, Letting go of old stories and pains, I now see healing like an onion Layers upon layers still remains To fill the holes and emptiness I patched it up the best I could, With Control, Perfection and Fixing Outside love, alcohol and some food. I have learned thru these experiences These tools were not the best. Short term relief always happened. Long term, I fell deep in distress. Stirring deep inside me, Was my heart crying out. Saying “Heal these wounds Tara, Choose. Turn your life around! So, I listened and took action, One little step at a time. Brave Warrior Tara showed up, With the goal to be whole and shine! I am never done with this healing, I am determined to rise above. I choose to heal on my life’s journey And fill My Self with self-love. Heal the holes to Be whole. This is what we are called to do It takes work and it’s not easy But you will discover the most authentic you.
While this picture and poem is personal to me, I would like to challenge you in a Self Refection! Are you ready for the the challenge?
Identify a tiny small hole (emotional pain) that you are holding onto or feel, (now is not the time to go for the Big Kahuna if you are not fully supported). And if you are willing and ready, make the choice to heal it. Don’t worry about the steps and the how-to at this moment. Being aware of it, and ready to let it go is a great first step. I can assure you, healing little holes add up to “The Whole Goal”!
If you would like to learn more about ways to shift from being hole to whole, then I encourage you to check out these two posts for steps and guidance. We all have the power within us to heal and feel whole again. BELIEVE THIS!
- 6 Steps For Healing While Sleeping
- 4 Steps For Shapeshifting Your Mind To Heal (coming soon!)
Big Hugs to you! And Thank You for being here!
Tara